New here... been lurking for some time now...
I still serve... but with each passing day, it gets harder and harder. I'm slowly... SLOWLY working on my wife (I call her Mrs. Hardcore) and even my M-I-L (who taught my wife how to be hardcore). Making some amazing progress... they are still hardcore... but unrecognizable from a couple years ago!
I have a plan to escape...and to get my wife out as well. But until that time, how do you handle your responsibilities? How do you spend your time in field service? I've just been walking up to peoples doors, PRETEND TO RING THE DOOR BELL, (never knock) and then leave. I have avoided talking to so many people that way!
What about service meeting parts and public talks? How do you do those things with out raising suspicion or losing your sanity? Shepherding calls are a nightmare... the ones I go on, I'll just talk about love and how to not be a terrible person. I hate going with elders that just want to drive in the "go to meetings, go in field service, do more" mantra.
I know there are a number of serving brothers on this board, so I'm just curious how you handle your assignments in the congregation. If I were to listen to one of your public talks... would I know you were an apostate? Do you "lie" and say "support the GB" to avoid suspicion? Or do you make the talk as general and mainstream as possible and eliminate most of the cult speak? I've already thrown out my talk about blood... can't believe that I used to think that was what God (if he even really exists) actually wanted! Do you feel "dirty" after giving parts and "encouraging" the friends?
Anyways, nice to see everyone contributing to the board. I look forward to your comments, or just say hi! I'm glad more and more people are waking up... I wonder how many are awake and we don't even know it yet...
Have a great evening everyone!
